What little was left has now shattered










A million little pieces

Yeah, I'm a failure, So What?

Why are we so afraid of failure, does it not teach us something important.

For me, I'm finally realizing that I must be accountable for everything I do. Im learning about the bad decisions I make and how to change it so next time it's better.

I'm learning that maybe I should do what I want, and not what others expect of me.

I want to care about me for once. Time for myself.


Goodnight

So much, yet so little

Mid-term tomorrow (english)

History Essay - thursday

World Religion Quiz - 18th

English Essay - 19th

World Religion Essay - 25th

and some other minor quizzes? quizes? quizis? nope

yet i feel like im not doing anything...this is why im soooo far behind on my readings...

I miss this

Studying till the wee hours

.....again

May You Rest In Peace

My uncle died, why? He has a six year old daughter that will never get to share those father-daughter moments that were soo special in my life. Why does she have to grow up never truly knowing her father? Why?





Why?
And why do I feel like I have nothing to say to people in these moments? There's the "My thoughts and prayers are with you," but I feel more than that. "My heart breaks at the sadness of the situation you and your daughter are in. He was a great man, one the world will miss, a man that I will miss." This is closer, but still not all that I want to say.

I feel that I will never know what to say in these situations, I feel no one really does.

I am thankful that I saw him Thanksgiving and hugged him for one last time. I realize now that saying "Good-bye, see you Christmas," is really now, "Good-bye, see you one day in the skies above."

May you rest in peace Uncle Tony. May you rest in peace.

Exhausted

I have been non stop this summer. Seriously, most of my summers are filled with the lazy days where your relationship with the shower is strained, but the relationship with the sims or facebook has never been better. But no, not this summer, since school got out ive had one of those days. Yeah getting money is sweet and all but seriously, im pooped. I work EVERY day, and then i go out and chill with meagan and david and ocasionally andrew (i miss you) and others. I need the money but i want my friends.
Maybe i can win the lottery and this will be solved
or
marry a rich man

AND then i just realized that im leaving in like two weeks....... !

Humph...

This feels weird...

I have never felt this way before

I'm feeling sorry for myself for some reason. Out of body experience....sitting there looking at myself and just feeling sorry for me.